﻿<?xml version="1.0" encoding="utf-8"?><rss version="2.0"><channel><title>Pajamieez's Xanga</title><link>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/</link><description>Latest Xanga weblog from Pajamieez</description><language>en-us</language><ttl>60</ttl><image><title>The Weblog Community</title><url>http://s.xanga.com/images/xangalogobutton.gif</url><link>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/</link></image><item><title>Friday, April 15, 2005</title><link>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/243210409/item/</link><guid>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/243210409/item/</guid><pubDate>Fri, 15 Apr 2005 23:48:54 GMT</pubDate><description>HAHA I finally put up a comic. It totally blows though. So have mercy. Leave comments ^^&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://www.geocities.com/pj32384/Seconddrawingedit.JPG"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Future Updates&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- I'll finish the next page LOL&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- I'll really ask Dana to the Cherry Blossom Festival &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- Azure Dream's monster tower will be defeated!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- I think jogging is in my future. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;_ Atreyu will pay me back the fifty bucks he owes me!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- I will get The Girl . . . (wishful thinking)</description><comments>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/243210409/item/#firstcomment</comments></item><item><title>Tuesday, April 05, 2005</title><link>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/236189931/item/</link><guid>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/236189931/item/</guid><pubDate>Tue, 05 Apr 2005 02:36:10 GMT</pubDate><description>Yes, that's my drawing upfront. Yes, I know that head is huge. No, I don't care, so LOL in your face! &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;After reading a lot of William Gibson, one comes to realize that everything one's known about science fiction and the cyberpunk world have been solely based on the short stories of one man. Everything from big multimillion dollar movies such as The Matrix trilogy, down to a little known sci-fi gem mythos called shadowrun; all boil down to one short story called "Burning Chrome". The way Ed surfs the internet is reminiscent of Johnny from "Johnny Mnemonic". Fey Valentine's character is Sandy from, "The New Rose Hotel." Post apocalyptic futures, where corporations run people's lives and make a commodity  individuality through the reaping the capitalist rewards of selling thins such as dreams and experience have all originated from the world that Gibson creates. In the world of cyberpunk, little progress has been made. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;However, one can reflect on cyberpunk as a mirror image of society and its destination. Corporations are running the lives of people as they lobby with the affairs of the world through congressmen. These same corporations have my email address, and phone number. People are bombarded by ads as they walk down the street, or try to have a quiet meal at home. Everyone's trying to sell me crap I don't want with ever second that goes by. TV, movies, videogames, spam, junk mail, real life junk mail, billboards, telemarketers, and radio ads just to say the least are throwing their product in the faces of society. Needless to say, but like the ants that swarm on a drop of honey, we accept what comes our way. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The only thing humanity has left are experiences and knowledge right? No one can know exactly how you feel when you jump off an airplane and feel the cold wind strike across your face as you plummet towards earth. Not everyone can know what it feels like to become a solider and fight wars. Human experience can never be manufactured can it? Gaming is the first step into selling human experience. If one was to learn how to drive in a simulation videogame designed to teach you how to drive, one could then just as easily put on the real road because you had the virtual experience of driving. What does hunting in a party full of friends, or worse; people you don' t know? Play a first person shooter online and you'll know what teamwork truly is. Eventually, all the experience and memories man has to offer will be a just another drop in the bucket. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;What cyberpunk warns its readers about the most is metaphoric 261-45 of individuality. The saying that there are no heroes is true in the current states of the world, let alone cyberpunk. Today's hero is "Bob" down at accounting who comes to work on time and leaves later than he needs to. "Bob" sets an example for all the other less obedient sheep that straggle along the path.  “Bob” is happy where he is, that means he doesn’t want to get promoted, which means that we can keep him there till he becomes invalid so “John” can come up and take his place in a couple of years. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Ugh, I’m tired of writing, I’m going to grab a Coca-Cola.</description><comments>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/236189931/item/#firstcomment</comments></item><item><title>Friday, March 25, 2005</title><link>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/228817225/item/</link><guid>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/228817225/item/</guid><pubDate>Fri, 25 Mar 2005 08:33:31 GMT</pubDate><description>First I want to congratulate Germ and Atreyu for brining a new life into the world. Raise her well guys. &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;Also,
I have another shout out to give, which is to my OTHER long lost sister
Kristin. She lives in Australia. . . I swear to god, I’m not lying!
Thanks for reading my xanga sis! &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;Otaku: A wild beast capable
of disguising itself as a normal person. The otaku watches and reads
anything in Japanese, giving the beast an almost certain delusion that
it belongs in Japan or believes that it is Japanese. When hunting, an
Otaku sneaks around, listening for an anime related word such as manga.
When a suitable prey is found, the otaku ravages its prey with useless
information about anime. In worst case scenarios, they spoil plots. The
otaku prefer females, in which case they attack ferociously, offering a
sign of superiority in the knowledge of anime and manga. Otaku are
dangerous animals, keep back with a long stick. &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;Do I hate hardcore anime fans? … Sometimes ^^;&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;It’s
not that I hate hardcore anime fans, but sometimes they just get on my
nerves. Take for instance !@#$. !@#$ peeked over at my computer screen
one day at the Rutgers Internet Café, and happened to spy the word BECK
on my google search. In all honesty, there’s many different things that
BECK could be. BECK could be a dog, or a new age singer, or worse, a
refrigerator. However, this BECK was anime related and !@#$ just
happened to see it. And thus, the wildest battle of my life began. &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;!@#$
begins to talk about Beck in a casual manner, like one would talk about
sports or the weather. However as the conversation continued, his
appearance began to change slightly. I could see the color of his skin
getting darker, his eyes turning red like blood. And as !@#$ continued
to speak, fur grew from his arms. As the conversation drifted away from
Beck, that’s when the teeth began to show. Suddenly, I was attacked!
The otaku started to verbally bite and claw at me, howling from time to
time to alert those around him that I was a victim. Some of the
greatest plot twists in anime were spoiled, and the honor of some of my
most beloved titles were tarnished with his obscure opinions. &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;As
my armor of patience +5 began to crack, someone comes to my aid. The
vision of EQgirl slowly approaches from the distance of the Rutgers
Internet Café. I’m saved, a partner to combat this 3vi1. However, as I
call EQgirl’s name and she comes running to help me, a grave
underestimation brought by the negligence to acquire knowledge of the
behavioral habits of otaku hit home. What anime chicks are to Otakus
are like what an injured gazelle is to a lion; dinner and a show. With
the proverbial “Hi, what’cha guys talkin about? Anime? I love anime!”
EQgirl had just leaped into the lion’s mouth. My attention gained from
the Otaku began to wane. I used my greatest social weapons to gain the
beasts attention, but it was too late, those blood shot eyes diverted
away from me. I had lost Aggro. . . &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;Watching a white mage get
mauled by a high level mob was not a pretty picture. EQgirl didn’t
stand a chance with her low experience level. Even I, who once thought
of himself as a high level anime fan have been minuscule by this
Otaku’s great experience. At times I was jealous but most over, I was
annoyed at being attacked. If only such a force was on the side of
good. Poor EQgirl, if I didn’t know any better, it seemed as if she was
going to give up. Slowly she crept behind me, holding on to my arm,
waiting for the intense attacks to stop.&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;“What anime do you watch?”&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;“Blah blah blah ---What else?”&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;“Blah blah blah ---What else?”&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;“Blah blah blah ---What else?”&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;EQgirl
was losing the battle, as I tried to gain some attention, using a
combination of provoke and powerful attacks, but I was mostly ignored.
EQgirl started to give me the silent single to run away and med, so I
pulled my 2hour technique: &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;“Umm hey EQgirl don’t you have class right now?”&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;“Oh yeah, walk with me?”&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;“No problem.”&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;As ran away, the Otaku tried to follow, but seeing as we were quicker than the beast, we narrowly escaped death. &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;“Thanks for saving me back there EQgirl.” I said to her as we walked to class.&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;“If I had known he was THAT crazy, I would have left you there.” She replied in a sarcastic way.&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;Otaku … *shudder*</description><comments>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/228817225/item/#firstcomment</comments></item><item><title>Thursday, March 03, 2005</title><link>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/214896145/item/</link><guid>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/214896145/item/</guid><pubDate>Thu, 03 Mar 2005 02:37:39 GMT</pubDate><description>.... The Man has a better chance at getting the girl then I do .... She
calls him up when she's sad. I wish I could be him . . . &lt;br&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
Future updates&lt;br&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
- Give up on life&lt;br&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
- The Man and The Girl are gonna hook up, which will make my life misrable. (She didn't even want to talk about it with me.) &lt;br&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
- I'll forget that Atreyu owes me fifty bucks. &lt;br&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
- I'll lose The Girl . . . to my little brother. &lt;br&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
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</description><comments>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/214896145/item/#firstcomment</comments></item><item><title>Wednesday, March 02, 2005</title><link>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/214380788/item/</link><guid>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/214380788/item/</guid><pubDate>Wed, 02 Mar 2005 05:37:28 GMT</pubDate><description>Sorry for the lack of Xanga entries. There are several reasons for the lack of updates:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;1. Valentine’s day was just plain wrong. Actually, I got totally rejected. That Girl just plainly said no, leave me alone. After this event, I was pretty depressed. I lost the will to study or pay attention to anyone. You see, That Girl had all the qualities I look for when I want to date someone. Those qualities in question are rather obscure compared to the standard of most men out looking for ass. My most important preference for women is that they’re deeper than just partying, actual intelligence is a must. Shyness and outgoingness must coexist at the same time. She’s got to be cute and shorter than me. PLUS have some sort of interest in Japanese animation/art. That Girl fulfilled those needs. However, it was not to be. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;2. EQgirl has also taken up a lot of my time when it comes to thinking abut things.  You see, I first met EQgirl last semester on the subway coming home from school. We talked, we laughed, we boarded the train, she got lonely and sat next to me and we continued all the good stuff. But like how everyone’s lives have places where the train stops at different stations, ours ended in Silverlake and it was a hell of a ride. We parted ways and thought to never see each other again. This semester I see her a lot. You see my friend’s EQgirl is a hardcore gamer and anime fan! She told me about her adventures in Ever Quest 2, and I would talk about my World of Warcraft PVP battles.  She understood what I was talking about! The conversation moved from MMORPG’s to ANIME to our wanting of going to JAPAN. AND SHE’S CUTE! God does this to tease me, but maybe, just maybe, she’ll like me. ^^ You know I can’t pass this up. What if she likes street fighter?! (Begins to plan the honey moon) roflmao&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;3. Germ’s baby shower caught me off guard, but it was fun watching Germ have fun and her BF umm sulk in the presence of her father. Which wasn’t exactly sulking, but more of an apathetic tension between the two powerful forces of stubbornness. (Long Story and it’s not my business to tell.) After the baby shower, I was forced to contemplate the direction my life is going which equals more shit to worry about. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;4. Papers, ugh…. Being an English major is starting to suck really bad. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;5. Wade is moving, I can’t let that happen. (PaJamieez performs the Bangcaya bondage succession technique) Sorry Jim ^^; Me Damien and Rheagar just won’t have that kind of nonsense. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;6. Snow - It’s a big distraction for me because I simply love it. When it snows I go outside and smoke, I draw in my sketch book, I write down insightful haiku’s, and drink beer. However, Rutgers makes snow not fun because they don’t close for shit. Damn Rutgers, it’ll still be open during the apocalypse. Fire and brimstone could start falling down from the sky, hell’s gate could start ripping open in New York City, and the dead would start to rise. And for some strange reason some fool is going to check if Rutgers is still having classes. That same fool will log on to the internet, hit up Rutgers’ website and see on the top right page in a little box saying: “Due to serious conditions resulting in the biblical resurrection of the savior, all 8:30 classes will be cancelled. Students and faculty will then continue on a normal schedule.”  R U screwed? Damn straight. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Today’s topic: Exploring a new Anime&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I first saw this topic on Megatokyo’s homepage in Piro’s blog and he was talking about having this feeling that you were going to become a fan of an anime before you even started to watch it. For instance, you happened to like the art, or it was related to something you knew, or you just simply liked the concept all before you even watched the first couple of episodes. I think everyone has these titles in their anime fandom career. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Back in the day, I got my anime from this big store that has a seven days a week indoor flea market. I had to be around the age of 10 when I first watch dragon ball z for the first time, and this was my first dip into Japanese animation. After that, word of mouth between friends established what are now classics in anime. An old friend of mine named Mark introduced me to Vampire Hunter D, while Rheagar introduced me to Fatal Fury. In essence, it was rather difficult for me to know what the anime was about before watching it. However, the concept of a Vampire Hunter seemed to hook me. And I just had to watch Fatal Fury characters in action. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Now a days are different, with the rise fan subbing groups on the internet rising each day to gain popularity among the internet elite a la masse, (kids today are so lucky) it’s possible to dig up information a certain anime before wasting precious bandwidth. One even has the option to download the first couple of episodes before devoting time and bandwidth. So while there’s so much anime in the world now a days and information just exploding literally every second of the day, few have caught made me a fan instantly. Naruto for instance, began to grow on me after the Rock Lee, Gara fight. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This does not mean that there aren’t those titles that just capture you by pure concept or execution. I became a Jinki:Extend fan almost instantly from episode one! Everything from the animation, to the opening song captured me the moment I saw it all in action. The main character is uber cute, and the supporting cast, while a little cliché; are plenty and colorful. But the real honest to god reason I became a Jinki:Extend fan? The opening theme, that thing’s addicting. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Hunter X Hunter also captured me before I even began to watch the series. It’s probably the word hunter that really drags me into the show. And not only was it about hunters, but it was a GOOD anime about hunters. Come on, to be called a hunter is just damn cool. Hunter X Hunter doesn’t disappoint. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;There are many others of course, but I feel as if no one’s going to finish reading this damn xanga entry. Many of you guys don’t even like anime, so who cares? I DO!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Future updates&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- I will get back to playing World of Warcraft, damn it’s too expensive.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- I will start to find a “jub,” because I really need some money. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- I’ll talk to EQgirl, maybe she’ll like me because I’m more than just an anime fan gamer, but I’m also a really nice caring and outgoing guy. (sigh) &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- Atreyu will pay me the fifty bucks he owes me. (God knows if I bet against Detroit like he did last season, he’s force me to pay him. DAMN YOU BASTARD!)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt; I will get The Girl, (wishful thinking)  &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;------------------------------------------------------------&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;KNOCK KNOCK &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;WHO’S THERE? &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;INTERRUPTING COW.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;INTERRUPTING COW W---!?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;MOOO!!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;WHAT TH---!?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;MOOO!!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;HEY STO --- !&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;MOOO!!!</description><comments>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/214380788/item/#firstcomment</comments></item><item><title>Saturday, February 05, 2005</title><link>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/199347428/item/</link><guid>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/199347428/item/</guid><pubDate>Sat, 05 Feb 2005 09:06:18 GMT</pubDate><description>It's kinda weird how things turn out. When you think you can do something and you really can't no matter how much you want to, it feels like you're utter hopeless. Tonight I went to QXT's, a goth club in Newark. Moochie, Pirate, Atreyu, Anime chick, and That Girl came with me. Actually, this is the first time I've went to a club. It was rather small, but it was fun none the less. It's actually a great experience for me and I had tons of fun, plus Moochie and Atreyu are friends again! YAY! (less pressure on my shoulders from now on!). To top it off, That Girl was there. We were around each other the whole night, with Moochie and Atreyu giving us time alone. We danced, I acted the fool it was fun. Me and That Girl talked quite a bit, despite it being really loud, but it was great. However, all is not well when you can't do anything else. Of course the fear was there, of course I couldn't stop staring at her, there were so many opportunities that Moochie and Atreyu told me to go for it! Make a move! They even nudged me closer to her, but with a light smile and nervous laugh I got scared and just ended up being a loser. On top of that, Pirate starts making moves on The Liz and it's a wrap, I finally feel like crap. I don't wish to come on too strong, but what I'm doing now is not going to get me anywhere. The main thing about my strong points, which I guess is a self assessment if anything; is that I like to talk and I'm a good conversationalist (I think) the club didn't provide me with that unfortunately. There was only my lameo dance moves. Pirate is much more assertive than I ... something I'm really envious about. Basically, I lack the self confidence to actually be intimate with That Girl in fear of seeming like a lech, or a perv or SOMETHING so negative that it embarrasses me talking about it. No matter how hard I try, I'm still that young kid in high school scared to talk to women. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The club itself was great. It reminded me of the club in Serial Experiments Lain, Cyberia. It was great, I was wearing a binnie too so I felt ravish. ^^ Then, they started playing the rave music. It was done after that, I'm officially in an anime. Except combine Love Hina and the world of Lain and you got my live. A life that revolves around the internet and has trouble talking to this girl cause he knows he's a loser. Except that in stead of a hot headed Naursegwa Naru, there's a quiet and sort of shy girl. I think she only stuck around me because she felt bad. I'm such a loser. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;On a different note. I ran in to Ben tonight as well. He became a world champ. He's offering to train me for an entire year and says I'll be in fighting condition by then. Is he serious? I might take him up on the offer, seeing that he is a judo champ and I'm a wrestling champ. The two are very similar. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Naruto wasn't complete blue balls this weak and Bleach is always kicking ass. My Hime was a funny episode everyone has to check those out. I've been looking at Xenosaga for a while but I didn’t' watch the 1st episode, which I have but neglected to watch. The character designs don't look captivating to my eye, but they resemble the characters from the videogame quite well. I have yet to play the game either. Like most game to anime adaptations, Xenosaga might totally suck if I didn't play the game. I should at least give it a shot. I did play Xenogears and that was off the hook. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Didn't hear from dad today... kind worried I'll call him tomorrow.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I missed the job interview, but no use writing that one down, I'll never forget how stupid I was for missing it. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The new me still can't make a move on a girl... (baka)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Future Updates&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- I will put up my own very first web comic! Stay tuned&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- I will tell That Girl how I feel. It must be done so I can stop worrying about it so much. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- The adventures of studying and why it applies to you. uhh yeah... lol&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- Atreyu will pay me back the 50 bucks he owes me. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- I will get That Girl (Wishful Thinking) &lt;br /&gt;</description><comments>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/199347428/item/#firstcomment</comments></item><item><title>Wednesday, February 02, 2005</title><link>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/197459246/item/</link><guid>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/197459246/item/</guid><pubDate>Wed, 02 Feb 2005 00:08:20 GMT</pubDate><description>&lt;P&gt;It's been weird. For those of you who don't know, I've changed my attitude in how I live my life. Gone is the total lack of irresponsibility that sat around and idly watched the world pass by. I've decided to make myself a better person by becoming much more responsible with my life than I have ever decided on before. I am now a true college student. Borrowing from the acts of Keitaro (e.g.: Love Hina) I've decided to study till my brains explode. And for the most part, everything is good. I can't seem to remember the last time me and my mother got into a fight because I clean the house as often as possible, and all I do is study with most of my free time. &lt;BR&gt;&lt;BR&gt;After this mental change in my character I've noticed things to be brighter, I've looked forward to waking up in the morning. And lo and behold my luck changes almost over night! For instance, I'm having luck with women again. ^^; which is weird cause I never do lol Also, jobs that I applied to during the holiday season have now called me back for job interviews. The nursing home interview is this Thursday, and the retail interview is on Saturday. So all is well. However, I have come to realize that with my luck, when something good happens, something bad of equal or greater value will occur which is why I have decided to write this rant today.&lt;BR&gt;&lt;BR&gt;My father's in the hospital . . . &lt;BR&gt;&lt;BR&gt;It's a strange feeling because in the past, I've always disliked my father. But during the past couple of years, I've learned to live with and ultimately love my father. We now share stories together and even laugh together at the stupidity of common society. Yes, society is funny where I live. Those days are still here, however he is no longer the strong adventurous man he once was in his youth, and the image I have held for him is quickly changing.&amp;nbsp;"I can't talk very much right now PJ . . . " Those words pierce the heart with greater pain than any sword or bullet imaginable. Memories began to flash back from my childhood.&amp;nbsp;He took me to the park when I was a child, he taught me how to drive, he came to my wrestling matches and now he can barely talk. He's my dad and I am ashamed that I felt any less for him in the past. I was&amp;nbsp;like a selfish child only thinking of himself when all the while&amp;nbsp;my father&amp;nbsp;wanted&amp;nbsp;the best for me.&amp;nbsp;I have&amp;nbsp;forsake myself&amp;nbsp;in humility.&amp;nbsp;I'll be damned if I don't make him proud now. My goal,&amp;nbsp;straight A's; to show my father that I can be what he always wanted me to be. A successful person. No creation of this earth, the heavens above&amp;nbsp;or the burning&amp;nbsp;hell below&amp;nbsp;is going to stop me from becoming a great man like my father was. I will travel the world like he did, I will have a great family like he once had, I will become a great writer as he is, and I'll pass my story and his story to my children. I'll be damned if he does not see my grandchildren and the house that I will build with my own hands. It's sad to say that it took a serious illness to befall a family member to make me work harder than I ever had to before. Only a few men have a chance to atone. &lt;BR&gt;&lt;BR&gt;Dad, if you ever read this, I love you. &lt;/P&gt;
&lt;P&gt;I'll make you proud. &lt;/P&gt;
&lt;P&gt;I promise!&lt;/P&gt;
&lt;P&gt;This is the new me . . . &lt;BR&gt;&lt;BR&gt;Future Updates&lt;BR&gt;&lt;BR&gt;- My dad's gonna get out of the hospital. &lt;BR&gt;&lt;BR&gt;- The man's finally gonna start studying. &lt;BR&gt;&lt;BR&gt;- I will attempt to ask "The Liz" out. &lt;BR&gt;&lt;BR&gt;- Atreyu will pay me back the $56.00 dollars he owes me. The bill is stacking up don't you think?!&lt;BR&gt;&lt;BR&gt;- I will get the girl (Wishful thinking) &lt;BR&gt;&lt;/P&gt;</description><comments>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/197459246/item/#firstcomment</comments></item><item><title>Tuesday, January 11, 2005</title><link>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/185603139/item/</link><guid>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/185603139/item/</guid><pubDate>Tue, 11 Jan 2005 14:56:39 GMT</pubDate><description>&lt;P&gt;The pain inside hides itself amongst the shadows of the heart. &lt;BR&gt;&lt;BR&gt;As if pain itself becomes the physical manifestation of a disease that tears the spiritual insides apart. &lt;BR&gt;&lt;BR&gt;However, the robust nature of life shields me from the truthes, the truthes of those around me, and how I depict myself. &lt;BR&gt;&lt;BR&gt;Truth is the ultimate pain that pits&amp;nbsp;brother versus&amp;nbsp;brother, country versus country and man versus himself. &lt;/P&gt;
&lt;P&gt;And thus, man lashes out to the physical world to somone or something not knowing that anger from truth can be replaced like a book on a shelf. &lt;BR&gt;&lt;BR&gt;-----------------------------------------------------------------------------&lt;/P&gt;
&lt;P&gt;&lt;BR&gt;I don't know where that came from, I guess I had inspiration from my father, whom today I found out was a rather outstanding poet. One of his poems that he wrote for his girlfriend in the Philippines was nominated in the top 25 to participate in a contest worth twenty grand. My father's going through physical complications, so coming back from the hospital he tells me of a poem he wrote. He also told me that writing runs in the family from my great grand father and onward. Similarly, my mother has said the same thing about her side of the family. So I decided, why not try my hand at a poem for once in my life. Does it count as a poem?! I don't know. I'd like to put up a work by my father and you guys can compare and contrast the styles neh?! ^^ Consequently, I just free wrote that thing on top in like three seconds so it's probably crap. Toss over your opinions! &lt;BR&gt;&lt;/P&gt;</description><comments>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/185603139/item/#firstcomment</comments></item><item><title>Saturday, January 08, 2005</title><link>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/183961323/item/</link><guid>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/183961323/item/</guid><pubDate>Sat, 08 Jan 2005 07:17:56 GMT</pubDate><description>Why does Naruto kick so much ass? I'll never know why. It's been a big week for anime when it comes to Naruto, Mai Hime, and Bleach. Monuental things are beginning to happen and the world get to watch it unfold because of the great fansub community. If you've been keeping up with Naruto, Neji just laid waste to the spider guy. In an excellent battle, it seems as though he too will meet Choji's fate. In Mai Hime, the secret's out as Tate and Mai come face to face with their feelings. And finally, in Bleach, everyone's powers are starting to come out, Rukia is racing to find Ichigo, and Ichigo is about to face off with the spirit archer guy. It's all getting really exciting.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;School is going to start soon... I hear the groans already. My little brother has school this monday, and mine is going to start next week. It's starting to get really crazy. I think I have to step up when it comes to focusing on school. I'm just too lazy! Damn you Rutgers, DAMN YOU!!! Warcraft isn't helping me focus at all. I did get to PT with Mewanteat, Nevets, and all them. It was a really fun group! Though, I was soo weak I did nothing. But the guild is underway!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I want to go to Japan... I keep thinking about it, but I'd have no friend's there and I'd be all alone. Let alone the fact that I don't speak japanese, and I'd get lost trying to take the train, I'd be pretty much a dead duck sitting in a lake. Strangely, I got this in my email today. http://www.popjapantravel.com/winter2005.html It seems pretty cool but It's way too expensive for me to afford. But You get a tour guide and everything! Maybe I might even meet a nice Japanese girl neh!? ^^ lol yeah right!!! But yeah, all these trips and their plans look ssssssssooooooooooooooo kool I want to go! My Japanese is really bad, it's almost not fluent ... However, I know more Japanese than Filippino! boo ya!! &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Resident Evil 4 ... do I really have to say anything about that? IGN has it reviewed !!! &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I still need a job. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Yumi's Page rocks everyone should check it out. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Sweet September a Bangcaya song is now done! A joint collaboration between me and my cousin Cack is now done. When I learn to play it, I'll put it as the background song to the xanga. Yes... it's that good.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Future Updates&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- When the snow really starts to come down, I'll have a bottle of Sake ready to be drank.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- I will have Resident Evil 4 (crazy evil laugh)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- I will reach lvl 30 in World of Warcraft (Crazy evil laugh) &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- I be back in school and I will do much better than this semester. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- Atreyu will pay me back the 50 bucks he owes me.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- I will get the girl (Wishful Thinking) &lt;br /&gt;</description><comments>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/183961323/item/#firstcomment</comments></item><item><title>Tuesday, December 28, 2004</title><link>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/178448425/item/</link><guid>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/178448425/item/</guid><pubDate>Tue, 28 Dec 2004 19:03:44 GMT</pubDate><description>"PJ's so weird when he wakes up in the morning. I was once knocking on
his door for twenty minuets because I left something important in his
room. When he finally opened the door, I saw him crawling on the ground
like he got shot making his way to his bed." &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;"Drinking problem? I drink, I get drunk, I pass out. What's the problem?" ( I actually said this )&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;That's
the weird thing about me, I don't notice the strange things I do. To
me, I'm feeling pretty normal but then there's always that vision of me
that's seen by others. Like my 3vi1 twin brother. Whether or not I'm
really the good one is another xanga entry all together, but to keep
things on track; it's hard to really see yourself without the
acknowledgement of other people. Typical complaints though nothing big.
&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;I wish I was known to be cynically funny. If I wrote, I
administered a shotgun blast to his face, most people would assume I've
lost my mind. However, the random weirdness of Ksoul is just so
expected that it can be brushed off as exaggeration. Not that he's ever
written something like that before, but what he writes is really
creative. &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;PaJamieez's attempt at creativity:&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;BOB: "Hi Joe"&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;JOE: "Hi Bob"&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;BOB: "Did you catch Puffy Ami Yumi last night?"&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;JOE: "I can't say that I have Bob." &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;BOB: "Those animated Japanese rock star chicks that are drawn like an American /Japanese hybrid are pretty damn cute huh?"&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;"........"&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;BOB: "THEY GO ON CRAZY ADVENTURES AVOIDING FANS AND TURNING INTO NINJAS, IT'S JUST SO DAMN COOL! YOU HAVE TO WATCH IT"&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;"........."&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;BOB: "What?"&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;JOE: "Lay off the hentai Bob...."&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;End PaJamieez's attempt at creativity. &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;Damn,
Naruto's getting really good, and you know what happens? THEY POSTPONE
IT FOR A WEEK! January fifth everyone's anticipating the two episode
special. If everyone hasn't checked out Bleach, I suggest they take
give it a chance. Bleach is developing into a really good anime, and
the characters are becoming extremely lovable. (Rukia is just too cute
with those drawings) lol If you guys need alittle back ground into it,
I'll try to do it some justice. &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;Pajamieez's Anime Description of Justice! (yeah I said it nukkaz©) &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;A
death god's work is never done . . . When Rukia, on of the most
powerful Death Gods of the spiritual realm; has trouble managing a
dangerous spirit called a Hollow, she instills what's left of her power
to Ichigo. Ichigo can not only see and talk to spirits, but his
potential for a death God begins to show no bounds. Can Ichigo handle
family, Death God Work, and Rukia living in his closet while trying to
graduate?&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;End of Pajamieez's Anime Description of Justice! (yeah I said it nukkaz©)&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;Enough of this nonsense !!!! on to:&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;Future Updates: In New Years Resolution Style!&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;- I'll stop falling for guilt trips, because I'm way too nice and way to gullible. &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;- I'll make sure to alert the press when an ounce of creativity shows up at my front door. &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;- I'll make sure that this Xanga stops sucking. &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;- Atreyu will pay me the 50 bucks he owes me!&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;- I will get the girl (wishful thinking) &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;</description><comments>http://pajamieez.xanga.com/178448425/item/#firstcomment</comments></item></channel></rss>